Disabled first-hand..

I look like I am retarded...how do I know? Because I was once able-bodied and thought this this of others when I didn't know better. Not only am I paralyzed in a wheelchair but I also can't hear, see, or talk well. In my opinion I look pitiful. What some don't realize is my mind is virtually unscathed...I think the same. This is a blessing! I find I have to put doubts, reticence, anxiety, and arrogance aside anytime I go anywhere. Generally I'm going somewhere for my children or Forrest. Sometimes I just like to get out for myself. I am committed to not letting this situation define or dictate my life...this is not easy. The pastor said last Sunday that "it's not over until God says its over". That is right. The danger has been thinking that my life is worthless because it is different, basically foreign to me. However, my life is meaningful and is meant to be productive and will be. I am the only mommy Amelia has and that is one reason I plug on, not to mention that I have come to the conclusion that my loved ones are happy that I am still with them and didn't die. Impost importantly I have concluded that the Lord still has designs for me, the least not being to praise Him! I am disabled yet I am more abled in my mind than I ever was! I praise god!